May my Pom Pom come back again

Death is easier than a wretched life; and better never to have born than to live and fare badly.

Aeschylus

Life is a wretched gray Saturday, but it has to be lived through.

Anthony Burgess

These sum up what I feel at this very moment of my life. Indeed a wretched life most women lead once they leave the bosom of their parents. The life I lead since I left home at 9.

Yuan Yuan I think u cried a river of tears this morning for more than 2 hours. Mama felt bad that I wasn't able to comfort you. But how I wish I can cry my hearts out like you did. I hope you feel better after crying. Mama knows you are in pain as you are quite ill. In your parents nest all grieve, pain, sickness and unhappiness may be expressed outwardly at all times.

Yuan Yuan may you and 妹妹 have a better life than Mama. I hope both of you come to this world feeling worthy, loved and happy. And stay like this all the days of your life.

Here is a picture of you taken a year back. Look at how pom pom you were. Baby, may you gain back your appetite soon. Nothing hurts me more than when I have to watch you suffer in illness and when I see how the illness takes all the pom pom away from you.

Mama loves you.